When Anxiety Attack

A couple of days ago, i was confunded by a tremendous anxiety attack while here @ Saudi Arabia. i was very anxious (more to my normal self) on personal decisions and certain actions that i asked myself:

is this for real?
is this the right thing?
why do i have to do this?

there's no time to ponder if this action is right or wrong, there is no turning back once you're there on that situation. i just say a little prayer asking the lord "pls forgive me".

and i believe god never let his sheep gone astray. i've been a good boy naman for quiet sometime.

an hour passed.nothing happen.
second hour... nada
until i finally succumbed to sleep..and i must say it was one of my best sleep ever.

the next day, the thought still circling on my mind. maybe yesterday was not the day. maybe today or tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow.

thank god nothing happen even after the day after tomorrow.

yesterday, i was talking to my good friend floro over the fone and confess to him this certain problem. he told me that god's love is far bigger than your sins. no matter how you have sin, when you repent about it, surely god will forgive you. and then he talks something about sins and forgiveness and some very deep religious term that i cannot even understand it already (hahaha, sorry bro, you really lived up to your desire to be a priest). But the only thing that i understand from his sermon was god loves me, dont do it again.period.

and my motto for that "JUST SAY NO!"

and now, after days of anxiety and nervousness over some thing. i finally have some peace.

mental note to self: must-improve-prayer-time